things change, live goes on

lots of things change in the past three monthe: best friend got married, a new family menber came into my world, brother went to university, i had been a teacher for one month, a decision was made which would be a turning point for me.

i heard the news about three months earlier before i actually met her husband. when i was told on msn that she had been married for months, i felt lost. i knew should feel happy for her, and i did.

anyway she was my best friend. after went through so many difficulties, she finally found the loved one. i was so happy for her. i did not understand why i was so upset and could not help cring in front of my friend the next day. i was supposed to be happy, but i was not at that time. o maybe my sadness overweigh happiness. when we met one month ago i finally understood my strange reaction.
we used to be best friend. we were both the transfered to that school in 2001. when i was standing at the front door of the class i felt helpless and scared. all the students sitting in the class had been knew each other for two years. as a newcomer can i get along well with them? when i hoping there was a angle to help me out of this, she appeared. she was wearing a big smell on her face . she came closer and say hi to me. at that time, i thanked god for senting her for me. because of her company, i had the most wonderful time in my life. she always called me "good girl" because i always played by rules.i never went home late, absented from classes, or hung out with guys. i was an good daugter and sister at home, also a top student at school. every time she called me that way, i would be angry.because i did not want that kind of life--did everything to meet others expectation.( though that is who i was and who i am now). that is why i attracted by her. she got something which i missed.i thougt she was the crazist girl i have never met. then we became good friend. we often hung out together to do shopping,watch movies and go parties.we shared our happiness and sadness and there was no secrets between us. but things changed since we lived in different continent two years later. i thought our friendship will never change even though we did not get in touch frequently. but i was wrong, just because i did not realize ,it did not mean that there was no change. i was sorry for not paying enough attention for her and our relationship. i was so sad when i saw her cried on the wedding ceremony but can not do anything to help her. since she did not want to talk, i would not ask her. i thought she was mature enough to handle things. if she wanted to share, i would be there for her. but if she did not, it was fine with me. anyway when we together she always acted as a older sister. it seems to me that all i did in the pass few years just be a good listener.
now there is her husband who is always there for her. even though we do not know each other very well. but i can tell that he is a very good guy. he is smart, humous, considerate and gentle.the most important thing is he love her and will take care of her in the future.
best wish to you, my friend.